I've been silently contemplating a lot lately. I'm sure it has to do with getting back on my anti-depressants and I've been taking my fish oil. I've made the decision to put children off for a while. We already know that our options are limited and financially draining. We know we don't have the capability to pursue adoption, and I'm not physically prepared to use donor sperm. So the logical option is to put kids off for a while. It's really been more of an emotional decision because we knew we couldn't in reality make our dreams come true. I needed to think about how my emotions were hurting me. The self-destructiveness of my thoughts, has really been, well, destructive. When I eat I think, "What's the point in eating healthy if I still can't get pregnant?" "Why should I lose weight? I can't afford new clothes and I still can't have a baby." The baby thoughts have been ruining my life. So I'm going to change all
Taking control of my life to become healthy and happy!