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Together is all that matters

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY FAVORITEST PERSON IN THE WORLD,
MY HUBBY!!!

Over the last couple of days I have made a startling, and somewhat upsetting, discovery. Hubs has these days where he feels 'blah'. These are usually called 'meh' days. I don't know why it took so long for me to make the connection that he could be depressed. I asked him if he could remember when these feelings started, and it took all the strength I had not to cry. 'Right after I moved in with you and realized I needed to grow up.' How is someone supposed to respond to that? My friends and Hubs have been telling me that it's not my fault, but it's hard not to feel that way. Especially when I'm already depressed for so many other reasons.

But as upsetting as that info was, I think it'll turn out for the best. Now I'm looking at it as a project we can work on together. I know that he has a lot of the same crappy feelings I do, so we can fight it together. I know that the whole child-free issue upsets us both, so we can get over it together.

I believe there's nothing the two of us can't figure out together.



I'm open to any suggestions anyone has for activities we could do to make us feel better. It certainly can't hurt to add to our list.

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