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Intentionally forgetting

Today someone left a support group I'm in for childless people. She realized that as long as she is reminded that she will never have kids, she'll never be truly happy. I've felt this way before. I feel it almost every day. But she attached this pic with it. I've decided to list all of the hopes and expectations I believe people have of me. This way I can work towards shedding other people's expectations and focus on what I want to do. It may seem selfish, but in reality, if I'm always focused on making other people happy, I won't get to make myself happy. I should become a Jehovah's Witness again I should cater to the every whim of my family members I should leave my husband because we are not the typical couple I should work full time but always arrange my work schedule to meets other people's demands I should never feel depressed or in pain when it interferes with someone else's plans I should get a new job that pays more, no matter ...

A Weekend of Change

I have come to the decision that I need to start taking all of the supplements I was taking previously, before my decent back into the black hole called depression. I'm on enough prescriptions to keep me from jumping back into that hole, but they aren't helping me climb back up the mountain. I'm just sitting on the edge. I stopped taking a lot of them for no reason. That was stupid. I remember being energetic, excited to cook, loving exercise. I need to get back to that. I've still got all the supplements, so I'm going to be bagging a lot this weekend. When I was on them last, I found it a lot easier to take them when they were already pre-bagged and labeled with the times I needed to take them. My plan is to start taking these again: Cinnamon N-Acetyl Cysteine B6 & B12 D High DHA fish oil Inositol There might be more, but I'll have to check my box first. Yes, I have a box labeled 'Unopened Pills'. And it's a big box. I think I'll...

Where am I going with my life?

Sometimes, when Hubs isn't in the room, I watch TEDTalks. He thinks most of them are boring, whereas I'm just frikkin' amazed at some of the things I learn. Each talk is less than 20 minutes a piece. 20 minutes could change your life. Seriously. I watched one about crocheting a coral reef and it's ability to model a previously un-modelable type of math - hyperbolic math. I was floored. And immediately interested in going back to school to focus on hyperbolic math. If you haven't seen any, you are totally missing out on life-changing ideas. Last night I watched a talk from Larry Smith in 2011. His topic was 'Why you will fail to have a great career'. Have you watched it? You need to. Here. You can watch it now :) What are you giving up? What has stopped you from pursuing your PASSION ? I thought it might be important to check out passion in the dictionary. (I recently learned that some of the words we use don't mean what we think they mean.  10 word...